Bottomless

one thing i have learned-
nicola is not my enemy and she is not trying to make my life harder! allow me to explain… every time i dont pick up after myself, leave a wet towel on the bathroom floor, or track dirt thru the house- i am not living the best life that i could be living. I would get SO annoyed when nicola would correct my grammar, ask me to 'hang the towel back up,' change my shirt that i was wearing the day before, or even brush my teeth before bed!! When one day it hit me! I had been living as a single man for 7 years and the life choices i made before didnt always apply to my present life. Also, I realized that I liked smelling better, having a cleaner bedroom, having fresh breath (to kiss my wife with) before bed…. I liked what i was learning from my wife. She was never trying to make life harder for me. She was just showing me a healthier and better way to live.

It's kinda like God but on a smaller scale. With God, often times in the past i felt controlled by moral idealism. I felt like it took the fun out of life… I mean! C'mmon! Who doesnt want to get a little tipsy at a party here and there… But as God taught me wisdom, He showed me that he wasnt taking fun away but just showing me a healthier way to live. A life, that if i lived it, I would prob, actually, most def like better. And that's just one small, relatable example of what i've been learning.

God, my wife, family, and friends often challenge me and if i get sucked into the victim roll or become defensive, I could often miss out on growing as well as becoming the healthier version of myself. Thus, allowing me to live a healthier life.

I really hope this makes sense, bc i was sort of just writing and didnt check to see if it flows at all… it wouldve prob sound better over a cup of coffee

GAVIN